Monday, November 30, 2009
last sunday i went to boyf godson's birthday celebration at downtown east aranda(chalet)
there is super many babies there... maybe i exaggerated abit but still there's many babys there at least 10, i think
ohohs. there's a triplet there ! scary right, have to pain 3 times in a row below.i know i sound illogical.
i remember seeing 2 very cute baby there
one is boyf's godson the other one is a baby girl of a lady at the chalet
the babygirl have big eyes and when she sees food she gets very hyper.so cute !!!
then boyf's godson is just cute.left right up down all also cute.LOLS.
for a moment, i thought "having babies isn't as bad as i thought", they are freaking cute and nice to play with(not when they are crying)
i seriously take back that thought when my cousins returned from their australia trip
they are soooooooo freaking noisy and irritating at times, that i feel like throwing them off the building
XZ is so going to say im a evil witch if he ever sees this
pictures of boyf's godson
super cute rights?!
having a fetish for babies now.LOLOLOLOLS.
i have a video of him toos !
i told mz baby about what i thought of today, our conversation is as follows :
me: "babies are like super mad cute but then hors, if we have to look after them for a long period of time they become less cute and troublesome. so why our society don't have Rent-A-Baby service?! now everything also can rent, rent room rent car rent shop rent stall, why no people rent babies?!"
MZ: *rolls her eyeball and turn away trying her very best to ignore me*
me: "i think can earn money lohs..."
MZ: *still ignoring me*
i don't think this is anything near a conversation but whatever....
boyf's godson is called xavier
cutecutecute(:
8:59 PM
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Saturday, November 28, 2009
im damn lazy to update these days
when i get home from school i just sort of hit my bed or just seem to get stuck on the sofa refusing to move my butt off the sofa and get in front of my laptop to do something.
CT is coming in two weeks time. how time flies.
8 november
i meet up with derrick for a concert at esplanade
the pianist was awesome *thumbs up* and hot !
hahahhas
view of the stagepiano from where i was sitting
i was pretty near the stage
with derrick
i wasn't in a camwhoring mood that day and all photos only had half of my face in it
Alessandra Ambrosio. she's super hotttttttt
came across this at eletheowl.
5:38 PM
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Tuesday, November 17, 2009
these few weeks has been shitty
getting angry over the littlest thing and ......
whatever, it changed nothing for nothing will change
i shall stop before i start
life's pretty mundane these days
luckily i have xz with me for certain lessons ! (:
whenever i have classes with him, im super high one
you know you can only choose to understand or leave
your brain tells you to leave but your heart isn't letting go
8:43 PM
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Saturday, November 14, 2009
its LIM JUN RONG'S 18th birthday today !HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL (:
and see you tommorrow !
*winkwink*
hahahahhas
i have been super moody for the past few days
lack of sleep and hormonal imbalance i think
thought about a whole load of things. good and bad.
im considering about taking an alternative.
im thinking too much.yes, i am and i should stop acting like this.
im dead
i just down two huge cups of ice tea.
at least i would have distraction from all the thinking tomorrow.
8:44 PM
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Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Maybe I held onto too much hopes, that's why its hurting so bad now.
I still hate disappointment like before
you asked me to if I wanted to reconsider about all these.
But I think you too, need to reconsider, is
this what you really want?! Are you truly happy?
I think I'm thinking too much alr...
when was the last time I felt needed?! I don't exactly remember.how sad.
I'm going to get some sleep already...
9:53 PM
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Sunday, November 01, 2009
im back im back to continue ranting
LOLOLS
OOPG is not yet completed
my eyes lids are fine, but my eyeballs is hurting....
sians ! don't know whats happening to it. the group of red capillaries just seems to be growing in size and my eyeball looks kind of scary with a bunch of red stuffs
sometimes i wonder if i'm just dreaming, because it seems so unreal when you're not around, its like you don't exist. i sometimes even get the idea that its illusion when im with you. that event did not happen. we weren't together, didn't meet up and i was purely dreaming. i don't know why i would have such thought. oks, maybe i do know why. sub-consciously i feel super insecure or something along that line i guess. like a block of uno that is stacked up high with missing pieces at every level. it sways with every little movement around it and im standing right on top of that swaying block that threatens to topple any moment. standing on top of that block, im not insecure over when it's going to topple but whether the block is really there, or did i imagine myself on that imaginary block. same old problem.
i suddenly have like so much things to ponder about that i feel depressed for no reason.
i have to wake at 6 tomorrow.sucks having to wake so early.
10:51 PM
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Fuckfuckfuck
I damn pissed over a super minor stuff
I know its childish but fuck it
My dad woke us up early morning, around 8, with his bloody loud voice.
Without even asking us for our opinions, answered our uncle that we didn't want to tag along.
They came back at around evening time, and he asks us to go buy dinner because he wanted to eat zhu cao, without asking what we wanted to eat.
Nb, as if we're his maid. Its always like this. Him, him, him and still him.
When will he ever fucking learn to respect us, our opinions and the decisions we make?!
I hate always having to obey him. Why is he my father?!
I rather I have never been born. Then I would never have been his child.
I respect him and yet he thinks I'm not respecting him at all.
What exactly is respect to him?!
Not having own opinions but only doing every single fucking thing that he thinks is right?!
Sometimes I sympathise my mum because she has to put up with so much more of his shits and therefore I try to be better to her. But sometimes, I totally think she deserves to go through all these shits because she fucking allowed him to become worser by tolerating him all the time thinking that the problem would be solved if she gave in to him when she clearly knows that he is freaking at fault.
Ends up he becomes worse by age, taking what my mum does for granted thinking that everyone else also must obey him fully.
I seriously wonders if she's even happy like this....
If its me, I guess I would have went crazy and fucking throw a hammer at his head.
i guess this is marriage
its no wonder why there's more and more single people out there
i see so many failed marriages, that i sometimes wonder what exactly is marriage?!
a way to bond two individuals together or a way to condemn oneself till the day you die?
sadly for me, i see it as more of a way to condemn oneself till the day you die because divorcing and re-marrying takes up a pretty huge toll on our pockets and mentally.
i mean, if you really love someone, why can't you all just stay as you are, you know, as boyfriend and girlfriend instead of marrying each other?! marrying each other does not prove that you love each other any more than when you are not married...unless the both of you plans to have babies, that is.
happily ever after only exists in fairytales.
right, back to our topic
I really cannot believe I promised to finish poly and listen to them until poly ends in a moment of anger.
I'm totally regretting that decision right now.
People make idiotic decisions when angry/agitated.
now i know why being good to your enemy is being cruel to yourself.
when you treat them better/ don't do certain things to hurt them, without them knowing, they just take you for granted.
I still want to rantsxsxsxsxsxsxs
i will be back after i figure out my OOPG !
7:12 PM
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ARRRGGGGHHHHH
i can't seem to be able to concentrate on my OOPG's tutorial, dieee
OOPG sucks big time ! totally can't differentiate between method, private, class and public
keep mixing them up.
i realise, the only time my father and i can communicate properly without wanting to strangle each other is when we're watching soccer matches.
that bad feeling is coming back again.all those negative thoughts keeps running through my head.i can't keep thinking about all those things because it will do me no good.but still, i hate it when things are like this.
fuck.i didn't even start microsoft visual studio till now to do my OOPG.
must complete it tonight !
catching jennifer's body with sarah this coming week.woohoos!
3:46 PM
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Friday, October 30, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS PRETTY BESTIE !!!you can go clubbing legally alreadyyyyy! hahahahs
time really flies and come to think if it, i have known her for around 4years already
i still remember she is our class's MC queen. she falls sick super frequently during our sec4 year.then she slowly transformed into ms late, obviously from her nickname you know she's always late.hahhahahas.
she's my best shopping partner ! i just love to go on shopping sprees with her....
i love you i love you i love you, bestie !
when can i meet up with you to celebrate your birthday ?!
8:07 PM
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